Friday, February 17, 2012

A sad start to a new year.

I didn't post about a lot of things that were going on in my personal life last year, and I sincerely hoped that this year would see some improvements.


But then in January Hans was involved in a very serious car accident, and we're fortunate that he wasn't killed. He was unlucky enough to get caught in the middle of a high speed police chase involving four police cruisers and a purse snatcher. The purse snatcher was killed, an innocent man in the truck in front of Hans sustained a broken neck, our 17 year old immaculately maintained vehicle was totaled, and Hans now suffers from chronic neck pain which makes his life difficult as he tries to juggle doctor's visits into his busy working days.


And then two weeks ago, in the middle of the night, I received news that my middle child, Vet Tech Girl, had died. She was a beautiful girl in both heart and spirit. This much I believe; in the overall scheme of things, we are on this earth for a very short time. Rachel's time was a bit shorter than most and I myself have already lived more years than I have remaining. Therefore I don't have a hugely long time left before I hopefully see her again.


In the meantime I have two other children who need me and I will not become the kind of parent they dread to call because they can't stand having to listen to a weeping mess of a mother. We have no guarantee of the duration of time or the quality of our life at our birth and I choose to live my life one day at a time. I've been very blessed during my time here and even though I've lost a child I know I haven't suffered nearly as much as so many others have.


Rachel's pit bull Duncan is now living with her dad. Her dad helped take care of Duncan this past year and he became very attached to him. I've no doubt Duncan is quite happy and enjoying life with a big deck, a back yard, and a willing tug o' war participant.






Rachel was a huge force to be reckoned with and she will sorely be missed.

16 comments:

marysews said...

Oh, Laura, I'm so sorry to hear this. Sometimes life makes no sense. My prayers are with you.

Cyndi said...

I just sent you an e-mail. You know that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. I do believe that you will see Rachel again. Until then, she's watching over all the "aminals" that have crossed the Rainbow Bridge ahead of us!

Love ya,

Cyndi

Shannon said...

I am so sorry for your horrible loss. You have my deepest sympathies.

Sewfast said...

Dear Laura,
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart and prayers go out to you.

Two Pitties in the City said...

Oh...we are so, so sorry to hear this. Even though we are just online, I do consider you a real friend. Thinking of you guys...

Beryl said...

I can't even imagine how hard this is for you. From your writing, I felt like I knew her - and what I knew of her was sweet and wonderful. I am so sorry.

debbie said...

I'm so very sorry for you loss. My thoughts are with you.

I hope Hans is able to get some relief from his pain soon.

gwensews said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Blessings.

Mrs. Dull said...

Oh my goodness, I am so, so, so sorry for your loss. My babygirl is only 6 months old and I don't want to think about the pain you are feeling right now.
I wish you all the strength in the world to deal with this feelings and I hope you will find some reasons to smile soon.

becki-c said...

So sorry for what must be horribly painful. My prayers are with you and your family.
i hope that Hans finds good medical care and you are able to take to the high seas again soon. So glad that you still have him with you, even though he must be in pain.

Katie Alender said...

Laura, I'm so, so sorry. Will be thinking of you, your family, and your sweet daughter.

laura said...

I want to thank all of you for your comments. For some reason I'm having problems with blogger and I can't seem to post individual responses. but I'm sure all of you know how much I appreciate your friendship.

The Slapdash Sewist said...

Oh no, somehow I missed this post when you first put it off. What a terrible, awful loss. I am so sorry you have to go through this.

joanharvest said...

Oh Laura, I am so sorry to hear this news. I can't even imagine what you have been going through. My prayers are with you and your family.

cidell said...

Laura, I just learned my mother has terminal cancer. That's why I went to Florida at the last minute. We were in pass a grille scopeing out wedding sites. We decided to move the wedding up so my mom could be there. This post, today, really helped me. Thank you for writing it. You are right, we don't know how much time we have on this earth. I, sorry about your daughter. It will be a glorious day when you are reunited.

laura said...

Renee, I'm sorry to hear about your sad news. I always enjoy posts about your family; your parents are such a striking couple. This is certainly going to be an emotional year for you.